finding the right track

i've been overwhelmed with insecurity about 'making it' for the last year and a half. all of a sudden things take a turn towards better possibilities and i feel this immense tide of confidence welling up inside. i will let this wave hit and ride it out. but i won't forget what it took to get here and that the future for me is still uncertain; i might hit a jackpot, i might not. but tis much better to have a gamble available than no gambles at all.

i am excited and impatient. i want it all now!